I had a really hard night last night. I had trouble sleeping. I thought I was over this and had moved on. But at 12:30 Matt found me crying on the bathroom floor. He cleaned me up, threw away my soaked tissues, and brought me back to bed. He spooned me all night and promised me that if this ever happens again he’ll get me a puppy. A little tiny West Highland White Terrier that fits in a Christmas stocking.
This morning I woke up and saw that Matt had taken the letter to my grandmother that was sitting on the coffee table, had put a stamp on it, and brought it to the mailbox. He does stuff like that. He deposits our checks. And takes out the trash. Thoughtful stuff he just sees and does, never having to be asked. And the other night he drove through the neighborhood that we want to buy a house in, systematically wandering up and down each of the streets writing down all of the houses that were for sale. Little Craftsman bungalows that he thought I would like.
He knows me well. I liked them all.
Tonight Matt works late, but when he gets home I’ll have Mexican for dinner, and a Corona with lime ready and waiting for him. Then we’ll go on our nightly walk and play fetch with Berlin. We might go for a late evening dip in the pool and then put on our jammies to watch Conan.
Everything I could possibly need or want is right here in front of me. I never want to lose sight of that.
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I hope you have a wonderful weekend spending it with the people that you love.
July 17th, 2009 at 1:09 pm
What a great guy! You are a lucky lady.
Miscarriage is hard, VERY hard and it is so wonderful to have a caring husband to be there for you. I am so thankful to have Sam, otherwise I might have fallen apart after mine. You have good days and bad days. Don’t expect to be over it so soon. That’s expecting a lot of yourself!
July 17th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
i love you, your husband, AND bing crosby. and amen to what jessica said!
July 17th, 2009 at 7:16 pm
jessica, thanks. i had no idea this would be such a rollercoaster. i was doing great until insomnia kicked in and that is exhausting me. i’m gonna try your excedrin pm tonight and see how that works.
gina, have you ever heard matt do his bing crosby impression? he’ll have to do that next weekend.